If I’ve truly had nothing to say then there would just be no new post in the first place. I guess this is sort of like a filler. I’ve got a storyline but either production is slow or the story is being written along the way it is and I’ve got no material at the moment. I have been looking to make a new entry for a while but I’ve just had nothing to fill in so I’ll just drop some random thoughts below.
School is the same. I don’t think I’m making any progress. I wish I was as good as I want to be but I’m not. I have a little less than 1 and a half year left. I’m not sure if the glass of water is half full or half empty.
Winter is coming soon. I really like the colder temperature but it gets darker early and darker when it gets dark. Sometimes the air just feels depressing/lonely. I don’t know if it’s me or if it’s really the atmosphere. I want to try at school but this is making me lose motivation.
I wish I could go visit a butterfly house or go on a beefarm/beekeeping tour and sample all sorts of cool honey. I really don’t know what is stopping me though…
Everything is a struggle. I’m starting to regret my decision to decline an offer from the company I interned this summer. If my original goal was the top of the mountain but half way to the destination, a haven of comfort and content reached out, would you stop and rest there? You could continue your journey to the top of the mountain again maybe in a couple of years but then the journey will be much more difficult if you’d just push through to the end.
I need to take deeper breaths.